Eliza’s Fourth Month: April, 2017


Ah, the fourth month. A lot of people said to me that after three months, everything gets better. For me, it was sort of true. My anxiety peaked this month, and the beginning felt not that much different than the months before. But the days began to warm and Eliza's smiles came quicker and easier, her laughs came stronger and louder, and by the end of the month I realized that somewhere along ... Read More

Eliza’s Third Month


March, 2017. This was the month I finally started to feel more like myself. It was the month Eliza laughed for the first time and I cried when I heard it - it's cliche, but it actually is the most beautiful sound you will ever hear. Chris went to China for school in March and I spent a week at home with a newborn on my own - a challenge for certain, but Eliza was perfect for me that week and it ... Read More

Eliza’s Second Month


February! It was cold and we stayed inside most of the time, huddled together in one room, a family fighting the dark, short days, searching for the day as it should be. It took me a long time (months) to realize the hard part was over, and in the second month I still felt a lot like I did the first. Eliza slowly changed, though, which was (and remains to be) the most fascinating thing I have ... Read More

Eliza’s First Month: January 2017


We're at the end of 2017, which means my baby is about to turn one. This is bizarre to me. I look at my child, waddling around (walking!), never sitting still, acutely aware of everything going on, trying to speak to us, taking the snacks we hand her directly to our dog... and I think, has it really only been a year? But also, has it already been an entire year? It's been a year. And despite my ... Read More